`ladytwiglet

so apparently, because i wont name the people who have been bitching behind peoples backs, and the one person chris spoke to regarding this lied through his teeth and said they didnt have a problem with his girlfriend, i am a manipulative bitch of a liar who uses her friends to get what she wants, and i'm doing everything i can to split them up.

and his girlfriend was even more pleasant, telling me this morning i am a fat useless cunt who got pregnant on purpose to trap ste, because the coil doesnt 'magically disappear' (for those who didnt know, i had the coil but it was unknowingly expelled when i had some really heavy periods, even though the doctor examined me and said it was still there, hence the very unexpected pregnancy) although why i would need to trap him when we had already booked a wedding date i have no idea

needless to say, i have given up. the only thing i did wrong was to stupidly say that other people had a problem with kate, i should have kept my gob shut, but apart from that my conscience is clear. they can think i am lying all they want, i know the truth as do the people close to me, so fuck them.

i didnt want to go down the childish myspace blocking route, but i felt so ill this morning, sick, panicky, palpitations, the lot, i realised i had no choice, i'm not making myself ill over this and i am not risking the health of my baby. i got my sis jen to log in, delete all the messages and block the both of them.

he'll realise what hes done when they finally split up and all his friends tell him they never really liked her anyway

thanks to everyone who has given me advice and kind words over the past 24 hours, i struggle with things like this as usually my life is mainly conflict free and i havent had a fight with a friend since i was at school, 13 years ago that, and severe anxiety gives me panic attacks, so i am no longer in contact with either of them. they arent worth it.