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for those of you wondering 'is mia really that metal?' and for the confused ones who think 'what is that music on her last fm profile at the bottom? it sounds scary!'

and leave her comments, shes really excited to be on the internet, bless her!




"Drummer Witold "Vitek" Kieltyka of the Polish extreme metal band DECAPITATED passed away in a Russian hospital from injuries sustained in a recent road collision. He was 23 years old.

Vitek and DECAPITATED singer Covan (real name: Adrian Kowanek) were injured in an accident earlier in the week involving DECAPITATED's tour bus and a truck carrying wood in Gomel, on the Russia/Belarus border. Both musicians reportedly sustained serious head injuries in the collision, which is believed to have been the fault of the band's driver (although this has not yet been officially confirmed).

According to the Polish Internet portal Onet.pl, Vitek underwent trepanation, a form of surgery in which a hole is drilled or scraped into the skull, and was due to be transported to a hospital in Krakow, Poland for further treatment.

Covan's family released a statement yesterday (Thursday, November 1) that the vocalist's condition had improved. At the time, the vocalist was still said to be at a hospital in Novozybkov, Russia, where he and Vitek were taken following the accident."

now, i love decapitateds older stuff (considering they were still young teens as well!), and HATE the new album, but....fuuuuuck. what a horrible situation. anyone whos into death metal fancy having a 'listen to nothing but decapitated' day today in tribute?

i certainly am RIP metal drummer Vitek dude. you will be missed





things have been shit recently. for those who didnt know, i recently became self-employed as a mortgage broker. except i'm new at it, so i need a lot of training. and that for the first 6 months i get a small salary and commission on top until i get a good pipeline built up.

except my manager has decided that he cant afford to do that now. even though we agreed to it. which means, because i have only been doing the job 8 weeks, i have no pipeline. mortgages can take months to complete, and i dont get paid until they do. so this month i only earnt 200 quid. my mortgage alone is 360.

and i am getting no training, no support. hes just left me to it and i keep making big mistakes and i feel so stressed because i dont know what i am doing. i've had direct debits bounce this week (so the bank is going to charge me a fortune on top of everything else ) and my manager isnt accepting any responsibility for anything. i'm regulated by the FSA which is a government department and hes not doing any of the training he is supposed to be doing. the only training i have ever had is him showing me one computer mortgage-sourcing program which took 5 minutes.

and last night i came to a bit of a revelation as to how shit he is. i asked him, several weeks ago, BEFORE my first ever mortgage appointment if i could go on an appointment with him to get a feel for what i should be doing, as i wasnt feeling confident and wanted to watch him work. yep, no problem, we are going to an appointment on the thursday.

except on the wednesday he tells me he cant make the appointment and i'm going ON MY OWN instead to see the customer. so instead of being a much-needed and asked-for training session its my first appointment instead.

does anyone see anything wrong with this picture?

and to top it off, he told me what product to recommend, and it turns out because of the customers credit score, they arent entitled to free legals or valuations. but i didnt know this, and went ahead with it anyway. managed to convince the customer to pay the legal fees, but guess who ended up paying for the valuation fee (all £230 of it)

me. out of my commission for that customer.

i'm stressed out to the eyeballs and looking for a new job. i actually ran out of money the other day and had to take mia to my sister jens for some breakfast because i had no money for bread

fuck i am so stressed i dont know what to do. even my favourite relaxing hobby () is no good because it makes me worry even more and get panicky. i love the pot, but totally cant smoke it when i'm uber-stressed, it does make you paranoid. so thats been knocked on the head for a while-looks like i'll be taking the herbal highs this weekend and smoking spice (the most intense, weed-like legal high i have ever smoked, i heartily recommend it!).

thank fuck its friday

REMEMBER KIDS-STRESSED BACKWARDS SPELLS DESSERTS!




to my mate Dre ~andreasandrews who got a DD yesterday for this image here:


go give him some love, hes a lovely chap (although we have only really met once ) and very talented indeed. and he is being taught at college by the wonderful *andrewfphoto the jammy git